In exactly 48 hours' time, I'd be partying like never before. Somehow, the culmination of my Year 4 examination seems to signify something greater than just another average closure to a mundane school semester. Albeit the studying goes on next year and perhaps even at a breathtaking speed, the end of my Year 4 journey brings so many things so a close. The conclusion of our secondary 4 education, the profane and crude sense of humor that must cease, and the inextricable relationships that have been forged over the years (because those might appear 'gay' in JC, no?)

It's like suddenly all the good things come to a close and I struggle to recall how I ever got to know the best friends in my life. Sometimes, you just walk through a new door of opportunity but you never really can figure out how things are going to flow. As it is with status quo, my social network has expanded tremendously and the network of relations much stronger with certain individuals. Yet, therein lies a passive fear that taunts me: What if my introversion plays out too strong next year and I become another outcast. Reclusive or not, I live with an innate fear that rejection might come before acceptance.

But I guess, as optimistic as I am (or at least I'll term myself an 'optimist', characterized by purposefully forgetting all my priorities and focusing on the present fun), there's something greater to look forward to each week. Starting with this Tuesday, I'm gonna live like I never could. Soon after, graduation night will fall upon us, my OIP trip to Vietnam will fly past, a year of celebration that we never actually realized we were living in gone.

To welcome a new year of festivity.