I am still not really prepared for my oral defense speech tomorrow, although I am nevertheless exhilarated that it's finally my turn. I hope that everything flows well, an endless river of speech to drown the insatiable pleas of my crowd.
I am still feeling jittery about my final Math CT tomorrow. My weakest topic and yet my strongest subject. The contradiction of superlatives culminating in a final war waged.
I am still uncertain about my scheduled plans for my HMT 'O' levels. Sometimes, I console myself that I would be satisfied with at least a B4 or B3. But I know that such mediocrity only takes form in my mind. Reality takes this to a whole new level--a joke; humiliation.
I am hungry and my lunch waits.
And I wait.
We both wait but I know only one of us can change.