Now that my exclamation is done, let's iron things out. It's week 6 and MYCTs start on week 7, 3rd May-just one petty day after the god-given Labour Day holiday. It's week 6 and I'm definitely not ready-at least I'm continually paranoid of my status quo. Each time I conclude a subject, I am left stranded with worksheets that won't fill themselves up with answers. If only studying were as easy as flipping through power point slides and conveniently, callously leaving ticks all over the slides. If you want to disfigure education, please do a clean job and not ruin my learning expedition. I feel as though I were a can of coke, shaken and rumbled ferociously by a fat glutton who then uncannily decided to abandon me and I'm waiting-to be crunched open and to project my internal pressure at someone-be it ranting, screaming, crying or just solo time.

Time out.

Where is this heading? It sounds like a dreary epitaph waiting to take formation. Yet it appears to be a pathetic attempt at justifying the acceptance of my imminent failure in the MYCTs. When I tried to make some decent notes for myself, I end up fumbling over the pen. Even pouring through scores of notes feels so alien to my indignant nature. I know I hate studying, but to lose the concept of it-that's plain ridiculous. If only exams were like a blog, where no one could critic my thesis and everything that I stood for was right. Gravity could be gravy and biology could be bipolar. Nothing matters if you don't want it to: Fact 1. Everything else disagrees: Fact 2. One of us is a lie: Fact 3.

Hard to trust anyone in the world when facades fly past our airy heads like paper airplanes do during monotonous lessons. It's like a yawn that can't stop and flies are going to start swarming down there and establish a colony. (Yawns.. are you going to make me stand up for that?)

I sit waiting-waiting for that train you once promised but it never came. Either that or I missed it long ago but it's worth the wait and it's worth the miss. Life. ends. here.

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