Stumped. Temporarily but literally.

there was a momentary skip in my heart beat and a my speech faltered by a bit. He was right that I had chosen to be away from the rest but I did not know why either. It couldn't have been my Introversion acting up and ostracizing myself from the rest, I ain't so anti-social. Neither could it have been a decision gone wrong, because I was confident about it and still am. There was only one perfect explanation I could devise after pondering over it: Different, just plain unique me.

Sure difference and uniqueness comes easily to anybody. But somewhere in me, I know I'm not just different, I search for difference. I remember the good ol' days in Sec 1s, and my random decision to go for Scouts as my first choice. There were the tempting options of being in a glorious sport CCA or just taking it slow in the aesthetics community but my passion led me to scouts. It couldn't have been because I had known how awesome the CCA was. There was just this calling to go somewhere else, away from the rest who ran away from it.

And that choice has brought me somewhere today. The inner calling to deviate from social norms and just go with the flow, wherever the flow brings me to. I've chosen to plunge into this unending stream and there's no turning back. It flows on forever but where it takes me, nobody knows. But one thing for sure, I'm alone on this journey, but only because I'm different.

And what do I want? I don't know, and I'm proud of it. I have no plans ahead of me and this gives me freedom to choose any option I want.

You told me Society would ostracize me if I had no plans worked out. I respect your matured thinking as an adult and a friend but in my utopia, plans originate from what I work out. No future planning, only archived reports.

And let this freedom run loose, like the running waters I float in.