I embrace a certain pleasant feeling currently, probably conceived after my year's first greatest fear was dispelled this morning, not totally though. Little did I know that fate decided I should be parade commanding on the first week and first term of school and I really wasn't ready for the pressure standing up there. Already the workload of Raffles Trail has been enough to keep my heart pacing but really, this added challenge made my heart race, literally. It was like a ticking bomb standing up there while the rest of the school population indulged in animated conversation and I wonder to myself: Are they noticing my slightest fidget or that my knees were shaking rather vigorously? I knew I had the answer when Eugene called for the students to quickly settle down and at that juncture, all their eyes were fixated on me, focused and ready to prance at me. My mind was still in a whirl and my heart just continued palpitating faster and speedier with each passing second. And at the cue to begin, I almost dropped dead but I guess I made it through till the end. The most unexpected place to screw up and I did. I was even confident that I had given perfect commands until... I can still hear the ringing sounds of surprise and maybe sneers that echoed the awkwardness up stage.